Even When it Makes You Feel Like a Failure!
I’m a doula. I know a lot about breastfeeding. I know how to help a baby latch shortly after birth, I can answer any question you have, I could fill pages and pages writing advice for different scenarios and concerns.
What I can’t do… is make enough breastmilk to sustain my [rather robust] children. I had milk supply issues with all three of my children. I knew EXACTLY what to do to fix it – I had given this advice, I had coached women through these solutions and I had seen it ALL WORK… for them.
With my first child, you might say I was completely oblivious, but not for a lack of knowledge – I had all the information, but I trusted my instincts and believed that everything was, and would be, GREAT. We slept, we ate, we smiled.
Pregnant with baby #2, I began to reflect on my experience with Mia. With a bit more experience as a doula, I realized that I had low milk supply. DUH! What an idiot, I kept thinking… I’m a doula and I didn’t realize that I hadn’t been making enough milk. It hit me like a ton of bricks – I felt like a fool, I had walked around all this time with a stupid, naïve smile on my face. I felt like a fake and a phony – had I tricked everyone and myself into thinking I knew what I was doing, as a mother AND as a doula? How could I have been so stupid?! NOT AGAIN, I decided! I knew the problem, I knew the solution and I was going to fix it. My complete and utter...Read more